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Reflection

I’ve mentioned once or twice before that while this blog is 99.9% a quilting/sewing blog, sometimes it’s my personal outlet too. Today is one of those days. It feels so weird to think about getting back to blogging about quilting after what happened in our country on Friday. Like many of you, I have wonderful, young children. My oldest is 6.


Lost her first tooth!

She is bright, energetic, innocent, eager to learn, loving, artistic – she is my life. Every day with her and my son is a gift from God. And every time I looked at her this weekend, I saw what was lost to so many families on Friday. It’s unbearable to imagine. I think about the teachers who lost their lives protecting the children and am humbled by their bravery, heartbroken for their loved ones.

Once again I feel like our country has lost a piece of it’s innocence. I’m preparing to send my little girl off to school today when my heart is screaming to keep her home forever. She loves school. The bus, her friends, her teachers, the learning, the specials, there is nothing she would rather do than spend all her time there. She has grown so much this year under the guidance of her awesome teacher. And I know I can’t keep her next to me forever. But I spent most of the weekend cuddling her and my son. Luckily they are young enough not to be annoyed by all the extra hugs and kisses.

Like many of you I imagine, I am left here feeling a bit helpless. I wonder what I can do to help the families and community of Newtown. I received an email over the weekend about a pillow case drive – see Flickr for details. If you know of other ways to help, please feel free to post them in the comments here.

xox
Faith

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16 Responses to “Reflection”

  1. 1
    Lynette says:

    Yes, I’m pulling fabs this morning for some pillowcases. I can’t begin to imagine Newtown’s anguish, and I’m still stunned by our common tragedy. Even high school parents are greatly affected – Friday at pick-up and this morning, the drop-off loop was many, many, many times fuller than usual.

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    Mandy says:

    I feel heartbroken. i also sent my child to preschool as my heart screamed no.

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    QuiddiyRox says:

    We are all weeping. Max Lacado has a posting on FB about Christmastime and the baby Jesus which was a balm to my spirit. As a retired teacher, I’d like all of us to hug your child’s teacher and thank them for their service to the community in which you live.

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    Kristen says:

    Beautiful words, Faith. We are so saddened by this tragedy and so wish that we could turn back the clock to prevent it. Hug those beautiful babies of yours extra close, as we all are right now. Blessings to you, sweet friend.

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    Donna says:

    I feel your pain. Even when they are older (as mine are) you worry about theaters, work offices, and public places. I read some are trying to make quilts for the children of Sandy Hook. But I also think all of us need to think seriously about guns, mental health problems and what we can do to make our country safer. And to actively support people trying to do the difficult job of coming up with solutions, which won’t be easy or popular. I’m not a gun person, but I would give up our guns to bring back even one of those children. Your daughter is beautiful!

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    Jeannette says:

    Well, all I can say is that you aren’t alone. Probably every parent in the nation is feeling the same way. But I guess the way I handle it is to think that the odds are so small that it could happen to us. That might be burying my head in the sand, but it’s the only way I can keep the worry in check. My daughter is older than yours, at 10, and she was fascinated (in a shocked sort of way) by the news coverage. She’s at a place in her intellectual development where these things are really interesting to her one moment, but in the next the full emotional impact hits her and she becomes nearly inconsolable.

    A pillow case drive is a nice thought, and I may have my daughter participate in that as it might give her an outlet, but I, myself want to ease the burden those poor families are stuck with. I’m not sure how. The best I can do is to try to find some way to support help for the mentally ill. Have you read the “I am Adam Lanza’s mother” blog post? That hit way too close to home for me as someone with a bipolar father and two brothers who had major anger issues. Thankfully both brothers are ok, now, but they still have major depressive disorders. It’s time we as a nation discuss and support programs for mental health.

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    Kara says:

    Beautiful post, Faith. Such an unthinkable tragedy, and it’s hard not to worry about future violence. I guess we aren’t supposed to know God’s plan, but I have to think there was a preplanned higher purpose for those directly impacted. I think it would really help for Him to tell us! :-) That is the only way I can come remotely close to feeling any peace. It’s incredibly scary and confusing. xx

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    anna says:

    thanks for posting this faith. It’s so hard isn’t it? I’m not even sure what to say to my kids, but it’s just something that really makes you think hard. I really agree with those who are talking about the mental illness aspect of it all, I wish I could help all of them.

  9. 9

    Your beautiful photograph says it all. What we have lost.
    Thank you for this post.

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    Nancy says:

    I am a mother and a teacher. I teach older kids and my own kids are in their late teens and early 20s. I don’t feel I can do much. Sadly, we are a nation out of control with guns and hatred, and unless that changes, all we can do is get the schools to make themselves safer.

    I am afraid I am feeling disheartened. I was teaching during Columbine, and except that we now do lockdown drills, no laws, nothing in our society has changed to make this type of attack less possible.

    Peace,
    Nancy

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    traceyjay says:

    Hi sweet girl!
    We wrap you in love and prayers… you and all the other sweet faces around this world…

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    Becki Seay says:

    My baby is 25 years old and teaches kindergarten and I wanted to drive to her home and protect her. I can’t imagine the pain of those parents and families that lost loved ones. But life must go on and we must turn loose of our children and entrust them to the world. I pray for all of us.

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    Christine says:

    Thank you for this post. My daughter and I bought fabric today for 10 pillowcases. There is something about a handmade gift that heals hearts. I think it’s because we pray as we make them, and we think deeply about the recipient and hope that they will feel our love. Then I think that God magnifies that effort and the seed of healing takes root. I am so glad that you mentioned it in your sweet post.

  14. 14

    So well put, Faith – I couldn’t have describe these last few days better myself. My husband’s family happens to hail from the neighboring tiny town of Bethel, CT, so the last week has been especially tough, learning of friends and family affected by this horrible tragedy. Drop-offs at preschool this week for my 4 year old have been especially challenging, particularly the part where I try not to let him see me sweating. Helpless is precisely the way I feel. I read somewhere that becoming a mother is like letting a piece of your heart walk around the world, no longer attached to you, and these last few days have truly hit that sentiment home to me.

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    Lindsey says:

    I’ll be honest, as soon as I heard what happened I shut off the news. I hate hearing about bad things happening to kids. It hurts my heart so badly. I told my 12-year-old about it when he came home and he cried and was so angry that someone would do something so terrible. I’m a school bus driver, and the thought of anyone trying to do something to any of those students I see every day, my own kids, any kids – it makes me sick. And to some (very small) extent, I can imagine what those teachers were thinking when they rushed to save their students. It feels like all those children are your own when you become so close to them. I hope that in the wake of this tragedy that people come together – everywhere – and take care of those around them.

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    Michelle Taylor says:

    Loving a child is to know how to live with your heart outside your body.

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